Restlessness was recorded in June 2017 at Sharkbite studios in Oakland, CA with Zack Ohren. This album was the result of creative unrest, and a burning desire to find music again. I was very excited to have Jimmy Lehmen come in and do some lead guitar work for the album. He is "The Idle Bones" portion of this project. Below are some lyrics, check it out and sing along!
Track Listing (click for lyrics):
HIGHER GROUND
CHORUS:
I’m on my way, away, away
Off to higher ground
Time is just wasting away
This ship is going down, down, down
And I’ll be damned if I’m caught
Just waiting to drown, no
Pictures hanging on the wall
Of friends and family that we barely recognize at all
It seems the closer that we get
The farther we drift from the ones we love and miss
This great divide is our new disguise
And we cannot hide from this way of life
So where do we go? From here, I don’t know
But it’s getting cold
CHORUS
We’ll never see eye to eye
Forever indifferent is this curse on mankind
Disconnected hearts and minds
Empathy’s in decline and prides on the rise
If I’ve got a chance then I’ll make a stand
And use these two hands the only way that I can
‘Cause if nobody tries to better this life
Then we’ll never shine
I’m on my way, away, away
Off to higher ground
Times wasting away
This ship is going down, down, down
And I’ll be damned if I’m caught
Just waiting to drown
I don’t believe that we’ve lost the fight
But it’s getting hard to see whose making it right
So I’ll hold my breath as I’m taking these steps
And I’ll to my best to shine through
CHORUS
SCREAMING APOLOGIES
It was raining that day
I came to scrape you off that floor
And all the echoes in my head
Said you wouldn’t do this anymore
The first few times, yeah
Those were tragedies
But now I don’t feel anything
As you’re screaming apologies
Screaming, screaming apologies, screaming
It was foolish of me
To think that I could be enough
For you to want to change your ways
To get clean and sober up
When all you want is pain
And loneliness
Self-indulgent, self-induced
I didn’t sign up for this
Screaming, screaming apologies, screaming
You don’t need me
You need a cure
Won’t be your crying shoulder no more
So this is me
Saying goodbye
I clung on to the thread of hope
That you wrapped around my throat
And now the closer that we get
The harder that I Choke
Don’t be surprised
If you no longer recognize
The person that you see when you
Look into these eyes
Screaming, screaming apologies, screaming
You don’t need me
You need a cure
Won’t be your crying shoulder no more
So this is me
Saying goodbye
To the way, the way you bring me down
To the way you always seem to drown
Blood this time isn’t strong enough
To replace a life without love
You don’t need me
You need a cure
Won’t be your crying shoulder no more
So this is me
Saying goodbye
HERO
She's all alone with that voice inside her head
Locked in her room, daydreaming in her bed
Wondering if this is how it's supposed to be
What did she do to deserve this agony?
Second best to white lines and late nights
Empty bottles and black outs and drunk fights
No that’s not the way it’s supposed to be
Always waiting for a…
Hero, Hero,
Show me a life I could never know
Hero, Hero,
When you find me please don’t go
No one should ever have to feel that kind of pain
Innocent, thinking they’re the ones to blame
All she needed was to feel good enough,
All she needed was a little bit of love
Now I’m trying to fix all that you broke
Left behind like some kind of sick joke
No that’s not the way it’s supposed to be
Always waiting for a..
Hero, Hero,
Show me a life I could never know
Hero, Hero,
When you find me please don’t go
Now you spend your days feeling sorry for yourself
Stuck in your selfish ways without regard to anyone else
Nothing you could ever to do would heal the hearts you let bleed out
If it wasn’t for you she’d never need a…
Hero, Hero,
Show me a life I could never know
Hero, Hero,
When you find me please don’t go
THE LIFE WE LIVE
Well I know you've got questions
Just the same as me
We may never find answers
But we can always be free
Unless you lock yourself away
Lost in that beautiful mind
So scared of facing the days
Well that's not me, I won't run from mine
We’ve got a ways to go
We’re meant to get there slow
It’s just the way it is
That’s just the life we live
It’s a collection of lessons
We either pass or fail
We are the sum of our decisions
And I chose to prevail
'Cause in this race against time
We can’t afford to stay down
So count those scars once more
And face the day when it comes around
We’ve got a ways to go
We’re meant to get there slow
It’s just the way it is
That’s just the life we live
So quick to fall behind
We’ll never get ahead
If we’ve given up
Before we’re dead
We’ve got a ways to go
We’re meant to get there slow
It’s just the way it is
That’s just the life we live
We’ve got a ways to go
We’re meant to get there slow
It’s just the way it is
That’s just the life we live
HOME
It takes a while to see this world for what it is
Over 30 years for me and it’s still not making sense
I peel back the layers hoping that I’ll find some good
But you can find the darkness anywhere you look
PRE CHORUS:
Careful where you step, watching what you say
No telling what comes next in such an angry place
CHORUS:
So I’m going home
To the house I built, Family I love
I always seem to get enough at home
Everyone’s blinded by their fortunes and the fame
So lost in image they’re forgetting we’re all the same
I’d rather not stand by your dog and pony show
So I’m seeking shelter in the safest place I know
PRE CHORUS
CHORUS
Don’t make me repeat all these lines
When I decide to go back outside
Let’s get better before it gets worse
Before the whole world, goes back home
THE LIFE THAT DEFINES YOU
I know how you feel
Can’t say I’ve felt it too
Like everyone’s watching you
Judging your every move
Darling let me say
That life is too short
To be living it through their eyes
Can’t stand to see it anymore
CHORUS:
Just do what you do
As long as you stay true
To that voice that gets you through
Living the life that defines you
If there’s anything I know
It’s that you’ve gotta feed your soul
I know how you feel
You’ve got a shadow on your shoulder
And you can’t do anything right
Always walking on thin ice
This moment won’t always last
Soon it’ll only be in the past
Stare into its eyes and laugh
Rise above what you can grasp
CHORUS
So stay strong, and keep calm
Hold true, just be you
THE ILLUSIONIST
I don’t walk on water like you do
Every once and a while I sink right on through
You must get tired of always stayin’ afloat
But I’m proud that I don’t
There’s not a wrinkle on your mind
Mine needs an iron time to time
You must get tired of having all the answers but,
I’m proud that I don’t
Perfection comes at a price
To those believing they’ve got it right
But I’m glad you’re on your way
And I may never know what it’s like
But hey that’s alright
I’m not sorry to say
I’m not afraid to fall and sometimes I fail
If I don’t try at all I’ll never learn to prevail
The man I am today, I fought to be
I’m proud of who I am, I’m good enough for me
I don’t give into temptation
And I’m not hungry for more
CHORUS
If you heard that it was easy, not from me
If I told you it was easy, that’s not me
I’m not afraid to fail, sometimes I fail
If I don’t try at all I’ll never learn to prevail
WITH ME
Have you noticed since you got here
It doesn’t rain like where you’re from
And if you don’t miss that life of fear
Then you don’t have to run
Your tired eyes are rested
Since you landed in these arms
And I hope that smile means you’d like to
Stay for a while
CHORUS:
Cause with me you don’t have to be anyone other than yourself
And god bless the fools that never made you feel beautiful
Now it’s on me, and I got this
It’s easy when you’re perfect
to say I wouldn’t change a thing
So I’ll tell you every day
If it makes you feel the way
You make me feel
Worth it
And I’m better for it every day
All I wanna be is everything
You could ever need
CHORUS
And now here we are, a life I could only dream
Forever grateful for all you’ve given me
And if I’m being honest all it took was a smile
I swear I’ll do all I can to make it worth your while
God bless the fools that never made you feel beautiful
Now it’s on me and I got this